Crap
Crap
Crap
My computer wouldn't turn on so I called hp and they wanted to charge me $40 to talk to me. So I ask them where I can take the computer to be fixed and they tell me Radio Shack or Best Buy. Ok but I didn't know they were going to send my poor computer to Amherst, NY. Crap so now I'm computerless and today is the first day of class. For those of you who don't know I start school--6 hours this fall at Chicago State and I should have my master's in a year. I'm still trying to stay at Loyola too. Well...I've had an amazing couple of weeks. I went out on a boat and got seasick trying to watch the Air and Water show this past weekend. I had to wear this big bulky life preserver so I couldn't show off my cute outfit and cute guys kept waving too. My husband spent the night last night and I had to hurt his feelings but after that we got along pretty well. But guilt is about to hit me like a ton of bricks. Isn't it ironic that they sent me this God's Daily Promises email that says "Those who trust in God are no longer guilty." Oh ok thanks. Well I better go to class before they take all the good seats. I was in this conference room when I was pregnant with my second child and all the chairs would be gone by the time I got there. There were like 6 guys and me in the class and none of the jerks would get me a chair. As pregnant as I was I would lift a heavy chair and try to find a spot at the table. But I'm not pregnant this semester. Yayyyyyyy!!!!! Let's keep it that way.
Monday, August 22, 2005
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Why??!!??
"Do you like American music? I like American music"
Somehow that song by the Violent Femmes just popped into my head.
For some reason I feel really good right now. It's like a large, heavy weight has been lifted off of me and I feel GREAT!!!!!
I did just let go of some dead weight that I should have never carried on my shoulders. It's strange how something can change in just one day--so rapidly. But things have changed for me and I feel that I have evolved. If this is possible I have become even more of a free spirit. I am more open, more self assured, and more true to myself. There aren't many more times in my life that I will have to kick myself wishing that I had done or said something that I didn't and wondering what would have happened had I just...
Keeping that in mind, why do I like The Game's new song "Dreams." Ok before you pass out or grab your pills and water just hear me out ok. Late one night I was awakened out of my sleep. I immediately grabbed my earphones to see what was on Q101. To my surprise some rap music was on and I realized that one of the babies had changed my radio station again. So as I was about to turn I started listening to the music and I started bobbing my head. I started listening to the lyrics and thought that they were really deep and creative. Then I waited to hear who it was and of course the dj didn't say. So during the day I started searching trying to find out who it was. I thought maybe it was something from the Hustle and Flow soundtrack because I'd heard some of the music on the trailers but when I kept searching and analyzing those tracks nothing matched up. So I asked my dumb husband and of course he was no help. I asked him if it was 50 cent from the Hustle and Flow soundtrack or something and he said Yeah it was. Then he got upset and said that I wanted a gangsta now and that I'm listening to 50 cent now and that I've changed and etc. etc. So I got upset with him because I'm all like I'm too old to be running around with a gangsta and that I only like that one song. He also accused me of running around with a gangsta. Ha! Then I went home and started searching and looking up all of 50 cent's stuff and nothing matched up. Besides I find him so hideously ugly to look at. Anyway I just start randomly looking at charts and rap stuff until I got tired and since it was the middle of the night by the time I gave up I just turned off the computer and went to bed.
So last week Tuesday I went to my unit meeting still with that bugging me--who's song is this, what song is this? So after the meeting I go see my husband (mistake), he throws me out of his grandma's house where he sleeps on his little brother and sisters' floor, and tells me never to come back. I'm like yeah ok and I go home and get on the phone. Then he calls me all like we need to talk and will you come back so I'm like ok I'm on my way. Just then some dead weight calls me and I immediately get off the phone with my cousin. I am on the phone with this dead weight for an hour and I think to mention the song to him. He finally tells me who it is and what song it is and I am forever grateful that I don't have that bothering my brain anymore.
In my defense--the version I heard on the radio and on aol is clean so I didn't hear the N word or the f word or the b word. I pulled up the lyrics and was kind of shocked that he called Mya a b. But why was she on the front of King magazine looking like that? And 50 cent did boink Vivica. And good girls are surprising these lousy good for nothing jerks and giving it up every day. But I digress. Still after being shocked and offended by those parts of the song I still find the idea of bringing all of the dead people into the song and melding dream with reality appealing. For almost two months now I've been living a dream but now it's back to reality for me. After all you do only live once as far as I know and it's over and you don't want to go on for the rest of your life kicking yourself and wondering how this or that could have been if I'd only done this or that and so on and so on and so on and so on and so on and so on.......................
Somehow that song by the Violent Femmes just popped into my head.
For some reason I feel really good right now. It's like a large, heavy weight has been lifted off of me and I feel GREAT!!!!!
I did just let go of some dead weight that I should have never carried on my shoulders. It's strange how something can change in just one day--so rapidly. But things have changed for me and I feel that I have evolved. If this is possible I have become even more of a free spirit. I am more open, more self assured, and more true to myself. There aren't many more times in my life that I will have to kick myself wishing that I had done or said something that I didn't and wondering what would have happened had I just...
Keeping that in mind, why do I like The Game's new song "Dreams." Ok before you pass out or grab your pills and water just hear me out ok. Late one night I was awakened out of my sleep. I immediately grabbed my earphones to see what was on Q101. To my surprise some rap music was on and I realized that one of the babies had changed my radio station again. So as I was about to turn I started listening to the music and I started bobbing my head. I started listening to the lyrics and thought that they were really deep and creative. Then I waited to hear who it was and of course the dj didn't say. So during the day I started searching trying to find out who it was. I thought maybe it was something from the Hustle and Flow soundtrack because I'd heard some of the music on the trailers but when I kept searching and analyzing those tracks nothing matched up. So I asked my dumb husband and of course he was no help. I asked him if it was 50 cent from the Hustle and Flow soundtrack or something and he said Yeah it was. Then he got upset and said that I wanted a gangsta now and that I'm listening to 50 cent now and that I've changed and etc. etc. So I got upset with him because I'm all like I'm too old to be running around with a gangsta and that I only like that one song. He also accused me of running around with a gangsta. Ha! Then I went home and started searching and looking up all of 50 cent's stuff and nothing matched up. Besides I find him so hideously ugly to look at. Anyway I just start randomly looking at charts and rap stuff until I got tired and since it was the middle of the night by the time I gave up I just turned off the computer and went to bed.
So last week Tuesday I went to my unit meeting still with that bugging me--who's song is this, what song is this? So after the meeting I go see my husband (mistake), he throws me out of his grandma's house where he sleeps on his little brother and sisters' floor, and tells me never to come back. I'm like yeah ok and I go home and get on the phone. Then he calls me all like we need to talk and will you come back so I'm like ok I'm on my way. Just then some dead weight calls me and I immediately get off the phone with my cousin. I am on the phone with this dead weight for an hour and I think to mention the song to him. He finally tells me who it is and what song it is and I am forever grateful that I don't have that bothering my brain anymore.
In my defense--the version I heard on the radio and on aol is clean so I didn't hear the N word or the f word or the b word. I pulled up the lyrics and was kind of shocked that he called Mya a b. But why was she on the front of King magazine looking like that? And 50 cent did boink Vivica. And good girls are surprising these lousy good for nothing jerks and giving it up every day. But I digress. Still after being shocked and offended by those parts of the song I still find the idea of bringing all of the dead people into the song and melding dream with reality appealing. For almost two months now I've been living a dream but now it's back to reality for me. After all you do only live once as far as I know and it's over and you don't want to go on for the rest of your life kicking yourself and wondering how this or that could have been if I'd only done this or that and so on and so on and so on and so on and so on and so on.......................
Thursday, August 04, 2005
Too Hot!!!!!!!!
I am sorry to all of my faithful readers that I haven't posted in a while. But... it's been way toooooooooooooo hottttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt!!! I am in my living room and it is so hot that my shirt is sticking to my back. It's so hot that the computer is even slower if that is possible with this awful dialup connection. It is so hot that I can't even download constantine videos from the we crave constantine site properly. It is so hot that it's only 12:30 and I want to go to bed already. It's so hot that I'm not swooning over any guys--not even Constantine or Moby. I mean I have been in worse heat. In Africa it didn't cool down until about 5 in the morning and it got impossibly hot again at around 6. I would love to go back there though. I had a nice time. Now I may venture outside before retiring. I promise I'll be back soon.
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